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My Love Letter To My Valentine

Dear Valentine,

Yesterday you allowed me to see something that I did not understand until later on. It wasn’t something that I was looking for. It’s just something that came across my view. But what I saw kind of threw off my day. I became agitated, irritated, just pathetic. When I had finally gotten to the point to where I became over it, all was well. What I saw still sat in the back of my mind, but it didn’t bother me like it had earlier in the day. I watched the movie of a couple go from middle school to high school with all these dreams to be together forever and what I saw came back to me like a ton of bricks. So when the movie ended I do what many single mothers do in pain. Turn the shower on, turn the music up as loud as I can, get in the shower, and cry my heart out to you. But, instead of thinking about everything that is going wrong, even though that’s how my cry started out, I begin to think about everything you do right. You make everything happen for a reason. If you did not allow me to see what I saw on yesterday, I would not have thought to release myself from whomever I needed to release myself from. I would not have broken soul ties that needed to be broken from my life. A few hours before Valentine’s Day, I cried my heart out to you. Told you how much I love you. I told you how much I needed you. I released my heart to you. I released my life to you. I released my soul and my spirit to you. I fully submitted my life to you. And as I watched the water go down the drain of the tub, I proclaimed the tears in that same water go down the drain forever. I will not have to cry about this again. I told you how I still have the faith to believe in you and Trust in the plan you have for me. I told you I wanted my desire to match your plan and purpose for my life. I believe you are going to give me the desires of my heart because I totally depend on you to have my heart and never break it. I love you. You have my heart Forever and always.

Signed,

Your child.

“Vision To Believe” By Ebony D. Miles

This morning, God gave me a glimpse of a smile I had never seen before on my face. I was in the middle of the dance floor, staring at a figure, but I couldn’t see their face. Calvin Richardson’s “Can’t Let Go” was playing in the background and all I could focus on was the figure’s lips moving with the words of the song. In my hands, I felt fabric of a dress, which I could have possibly be trying to keep off the floor as I swayed to the beat of the song. Then, I realized, I’m driving to work. Could this be my wedding day I see? The thought became crazy because it’s not that I’m giving up on love, but marriage it’s starting to feel like a gray-area I’ll never enter. Yet, I still believe, and wish, and pray, and hope, and dream, then just smile them all away. So, I continue on to my destination and as the radio plays, Calvin Richardson’s “Can’t Let Go” begins. Light, small tears start to form in the corners of my eyes as I sing along, remembering the smile God just showed me. The hopes and dreams come right back to make me believe God won’t forget about me.

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